I can't keep drowning myself

These feelings are becoming so overwhelming I can't continue anymore. I have to get out of this-not just the drugs but the whole shit lifestyle surrounding it. I have to get away from this town, these good for nothing people, these so called "friends". I'm making the same mistakes here that I made in LA but I have to, I want to, make a serious final change. I am so sick and tired of numbing myself, my emotions, etc. What brought on this change you might ask? I am simply too unhappy to bother with all of this. I'm done, finished. Forever. I am thinking about contacting my mom and getting her to buy me a plane ticket back to LA.