little girl lost

I'm starting to think that my choice to join James a d this whole nude calendar thing was a mistake and a joke. Little did I realize what James was really planning. When I spent sometime with him at his studio this past Saturday, he mentioned a movie he was making, a soft core porn. Okay, not my first choice of jobs but I really need the money to get out of Palm Springs and get back to L.A. Silly girl I am, I accepted it. I signed his contract to star in the movie. But I have to say I am decided because ill be sharing the screen with new starlett, Lorna, this girl younger than me;that's not the issue. The issue is I just don't want to put myself in another deep hole like I did in Hollywood. So, I signed the damn contract and agreed to get paid $500.00 for the whole one hour film. Does t seem like much, I know. He'll, I made more than that in one night of dancing, but I really need to get e Pugh money to get back home so shit, I'm desperate, I admit it. Ha! James could tell for sure how naive I looked when I first called him. Whatever I know what I'm getting myself into. He said bed give me cash on the last day of the shoot. He said he will send the movie to some porn companies near LA so we'll see; I don't believe it but by then ill be paid and ready back home. I'm home alone right now. The guys are upstairs partying with the guy we're renting this shit place from, the guy that owns the liquor store. Hope ally blog readers are doing well. Hope your weekend was better and more peaceful than mine was.